2018 01 21: God is Relentless, and Merciful

The stories of dramatic and complete transformation are inspiring, the moment that forever changed everything is such a desirable outcome, but I haven’t managed to have one of those. I have days or even weeks that feel reformed, I have moments and phases that seem like progress, but then I have those other days, and those other weeks. The ones that feel like the same old Emily, the same old prideful, disobedient, un-surrendered, rebellious toddler. And apparently, this happens even to prophets, even to people who have a whole book named after them in the Bible.